I fight it off alot of times. Its an awful and guilty feeling.
I feel it and I can't help it. I try so hard to make myself think I shouldn't feel envy, but its triggered from time to time.
Its a dark dark and ugly secret of mine, and I hate it very much, but I guess in the end I am human and I get to experience envy just like I have felt the feeling of victory, satisfaction, frustration and love. Its all a part of life. There are good days for me and bad days and what I do to overcome it is just live a day at a time. Take a deep breath and focus on my own succeses, talents and virtues.
Envy is just stupid.

There you were you sneaky little bastard, you!

He's back, my Moe Joe. 

I have a dear, dear friend who puts alot of magic into my life. He is a scientist that I met late last year. He discovered my music thanks to a magical friend of his, and searched for us, invited us to play and we became great friends. I admire him very much because he is a great thinker and an endless supply for real life magic and inspiration.
It was really weird last year when we recieved the call of a Scientist who wanted us to play at one of his closing ceremonies. Weird, right? But it changed my life in such a positive way... I can't even explain it.

So, its like a movie this whole deal about my simple and complex life. I was so depressed a couple of months because my head began to think negative things. If you read my last post you can tell by the bitterness. My scientist friend came to see me at a show and blew his magical powders on me... he gave me my mojo back. Thanks JPVC!
All the sucky negative vibes go away if I start living and feeling my life with the magic that one feels when you see a StarWars movie. My life is a movie, this ways its just so much more fun and inspiring.

I have great things going on. I am writing an amazing album and the title is so awesome I don't dare write it now out of fear of it being stolen by some other chump.
I am inspired by beautiful and creative people like these two girls from California (I think) who dye their hair in bright colors, and dress in vibrant colors: Bubblesung and Soopuhstar. Wow, I really get inspired by their creativity.

I finally got a job, that makes life easier in some way.

I washed my dogs today and they are very happy.

Life is great!

Once in a while in the life of this struggling artist, a crazy oppportunity seems to knock on my door but never lets me open it.

* We want you to be in a reality show.
** But I don't like reality shows, I don't want people to look at my ass and stuff.

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* We want you to record three tracks and take some pix so we can promote you like crazy and get you a big fat record deal with a Huge Label.
** Ok, when do we start?
* We'll call you.
--months pass----

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* We want you to be in a reality show.
** Ok I´ll do it.
* Great, sign these 7 contracts that legally make you our slave, don´t read them but sign them right now.
** Wait  a minute, I need at least two days to read and understand these...
*  No.
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I'd never  had a depression in my life before, and I never knew what an anxiety crisis felt like until this year. I have learned the true meaning of staying strong... and its no matter how ugly things get emotionally I need to think straight and keep my head above the water. Its been very difficult for me, but I am not about to fucking give up right now.


I will die with this very dream: my music.

My name is Melissa Menéndez but artistically, I've named myself Melissa Munster. I was born in Mexico and lived briefly in the U.S.A. where I learned english.  I have dedicated my life to writing songs and performing them, I love my music and my artistic persona; if I were not me, I'd be a huge fan of myself. Ha ha ha.
I play a little guitar, a little less drums, a little bass and currently I will begin to learn to play the piano. I sing, too. How well you ask? I will say its a matter of opinion, I am no vocal virtuosa but I have a cool style, I think. I remind me of a little Alanis Morisette and a little Gwen Stefani.
I stress too much when I write about myself, but there's no point in that anymore. I try to act smart but I make so many mistakes, too. I'm bad at being wrong but I'm trying to be a better person each day. I try to be happy all the time but sometimes you just can't be happy and I need to learn to deal with the sour moments in life... but still I'm thankful.

I am addicted to the feeling of being inspired and in trance for creation. I am a natural creative person and everything I do must be fueled by inspiration. This is the way I work.

Where I live is not the best place to pursue a musical career in hopes of being ultra famous, but I maintain my struggle to make rad music, be an awesome and inspiring performer and also keeping close to home where I live with my guitarist boyfriend and our 2 dogs in a country house.
We barely have any money because of the lack of jobs these days but we do our best every day looking for jobs, keeping ourselves happpy and getting better at what we do. Our dream is to live off of our music, and I must say its really cool music so hopefully that will happen for us.
I love making music, playing music, dancing, eating, being always around my boyfriend and my 2 dogs. This is me.
 Nice to meet you all.

-MM